felt that i should give a proper note before i run away from home. probably a farewell too.

say hello to darcinette.lj !

*throws confetti*

see you on the flip side :D

pantene shampoo smells like honeydew.

I am finally done with WZBQW! Had an overdose of mingdao today, which is very bad by the way. How huh?! I'm nuaing really much these days - not doing anything except going for training, eat, sleeping and computering. Gah! I'm not even exercising on my own! the only time i'm actually exercising is during contact and touch - other than that, it's just more of sleeping and nua nua nua!

My mom is having an issue with my gender. HAHAHAH.

mom: sometimes i really don't know whether the baby i had 18 years ago is a girl or a boy!

But i've been wearing skirts all my life in school man! So i am a girl, though at times, i do forget that imma girl, but oh well, it's okay lah. too girlish is pretty repulsive (yes, even girls find it repulsive!)

in blacks, most of the girls have short hair, and im contemplating. short hair is definitely way easier to maintain and there isn't a need for me to tie my fringe up, looking like a new breed of the canine family. the fringe wouldn't be killing me by causing mini-volcanoes to form on my forehead (i like smooth and silky) i wouldn't feel so dirty then and my mom would definitely stop nagging about those pimples on my face. GAH! that would definitely be such a relief im telling ya.

(i highly suspect my mom actually wants me to join ballet. no kidding)

could have went back to msia to visit cousins and grandma and aunts, but decided not to for being a calafare is a waste of time and natural resources (YES), and i have trainings. moreover the main aim of this trip back, initiated by my aunt was to allow cousin-in-law to be introduced to them. ha ha, i do hope that there will not be any domestic war, afterall, 2 of my female cousins (and they're sisters! ftw!) are somewhat attracted to this male cousin of mine who is soon to be married! how exciting!

[i just whacked a mosquito off my leg and its dead! and it's the black and white legs species!!]

my body isn't aching as much as i thought it would have been. thanks to the leg stretching thing that goes in every direction. ha ha, i like it! but my waist area hurts, a couple of bruises and stuff, bahh. this kind of injury - shiok.

i'm blabbering like a machine gun at point blank.

i need money to buy canter shorts, fbt shorts, films, cameras, clothes, contact lens, blah#1, blah#2 and blah*#3...

need money = need job.

blah = infinite wants = scarcity

gasps!

I guess, you're not so strong afterall, since you do, believe in fairytales - even the slightest bit. To a certain extent, you still believe that there's that special someone out there, waiting. &then you cringe at the sight of this entry, and the video embedded, not believing that a girl like you, a hardcore fan of MCR would actually like such a stuf - A Cinderella Story. But it's okay, there's a flip side to everyone. I actually miss this side of you.

You'd probably thought that you're Androphobic too. What's new? You once thought you're gay. HAHA

Speechless, yet amusing.

Sighs.

run baby, run, don't ever look back

today is love. very very very very love.

rugby is like an adjective, noun, verb, adverb.

you can like "hey, im rugbying now" , "do you rugby?" "i play rugby", "that was rugbifying awesome!" (okay, i coined up the last one myself)

today's happiness can never be put to words. it's too great, overwhelming and everything good. though i hope that my forearm won't swell up, can kinda feel the heat emitting out and slight reddening now. :S that angmoh boy was just too hard. im serious. HAHAH. brigette looks like one of them when she was playing sevens with them. so funneh.

im like a super happy girl, there's nothing to complain! with such a life, it's pretty fulfilling. contact trainings on wed night and sunday afternoon with scorching hot sun, touch rugby with the usuals on sats. plus photog, and maybe working at somewhere like fish & co, or sweelee, woahhh. if only i could do this forever - thought im not very sure if i can keep myself alive with my excessive spending on irrelevant items. bahh. but still! if this is for the long term, i've gotta tell my mom that im actually playing rugby, not baseball, or ruby. and yes, it's a matter of time that she needs to sign the insurance form. i didn't even tell her about playing contact today, i merely said i was chilling out with friends and going to their house. but i supposed my dad told her, and surprisingly her response wasn't too bad.

"stop playing ruby (rugby, she meant), heavy rain."

okay what right!? step one, im more that satisfied. (: and she surprisingly called me to ask if i wanted to get hamsters, since at her work place, there's people giving their baby hamsters. so exciting!

okay, im still in the contact rugby mood. HAHA!

It's over and I'm freeeeeeee!

It's over baby! It's overrrrrr! :D I was so damn happy yesterday!

After literature P5, some of the classmates and I went to PS to eat swensens! So megafrickingexciting! After being out of civilisation for don't know how many months (don't even remember when's the last time i went town), it felt great to be in the shopping mall, NOT heading towards a bookshop to buy pens(PLURAL!) or some 10 year series for econs or something like that. Bwahaha! I wasn't even rushed for time. I totally got blown away at the sight of so many things to buy and some many things to look at, things that could have make my awesome holidays more awesome!!

For the first time in my life, I saw colours in your eyes CORNY AH! MELIKESIT!

A's can kiss my bloody fat cellulite ass goodbye! (it won't be cellulite next time im telling ya!)

Now, it's like Rugby, Photography, Electric Guitaring, Drumming, Work, Sleep & Catching up!! Needa save like alot of monehhhhh to buy loads of stuff. SLR, Haversacks, films, Fuji instant cam, Electric guitar, Nintendo/PSP, havaianas, boots!

OMG, speaking of boots, I got a feeling my beloved black adidas boots gonna die soon! yes! that pair that brought me all the happiness, scored a few tries and got stepped on by bigger people than me! :( poor thing. I don't think I'll ever throw em away. On the lighter side, won some lucky draw and received a $100 adidas voucher! :D It's just meant to be. (:

And and and contact rugby training is coming! NO! IT'S HERE!! It's just tomorrow! HAHAHAHA. WOAH! I CANNOT TAKE IT I WANT TO SCREAM!! This is life and I'm loving it! but there's one thing - that i cannot tell my mom about it. she doesn't really accept rugby, or more of her daughter playing rugby. but whatever it is!

Nothing can contain my excitement now! I feel so woahhhhhh to the extent that i think i will have a outburst of happiness on my dad and pyscho him to get me some stuff! Just the other day my dad offered to get me canterbury shorts!! CANTERBURY! :D but i rejected. i must have been possessed. But it's okay! I'll share it with teamies, since it's like 3 for 80?

Hello! since yesterday, Lynette has been the happiest girl in her 18 years of her life!

anyway, sometimes i think i'm a little wrongly screwed up there. i get the gleeful and happy feeling whenever i see a couple that i know, especially if they're both good looking and look so great and nice together. awesome personality tops it off. i get this "awwwww so cute.." kind of feeling and will end up smiling to myself the entire day if i'm reminded of them in any certain way. it gets a little creepy when you think hard about it, i'm like an outright stalker. actually, no lah, most of them are people who are friends with me. but still, it's a little weirdddddd. but neh mind, it makes me happy so ok!.

i just 'renovated' my room - dumped alot alot alot of stuff.

i'm filled with void now. but the void's gonna get filled tmr :D

why?

In an attempt to celebrate POST A's all by myself, with my poly friends. They probably won't understand how I'd feel, how liberated I'd feel after 2 brown years. THEREFORE, I'll wear coloured contacts and act doe-eyed for tmr's celebration for Pseng's birthday. I only have grey. So grey lor. Maybe I should like go to the worst place ever to tan - which is the swimming pool before pseng's celebration. White skin + coloured contacts = AH LIAN.

After A's, no. I won't dye my entire head brown - like Adrian cheeee. Or intend to dye chunks of my hair brown/purple - like cynthia lim. HAHAHA. i thought of being shocking by just dyeing the under part of my fringe red, but then again, it was an impulsive thing, i promise i won't harbour such thoughts anymore, i swear.

Im currently living life with nokia 3100.

Live Life. WOOTX

& tell me why am i blogging now?

SO here I am, at 430am, studying lit - for a few hours already. me is getting bored. anyway, i can't really wait to catch the sunrise for thursday:D deb says the transition night to day is gooooood. and me, being all kiasu in life have decided to NOT give such a fantastic moment a miss. should learn how to appreciate life and not take things for granted, even though they're free (cringes). skali one day you wake up and there's no more sun, and all we ruggers would be doing would be midnight sevens baby!

-on a weight gaining scheme- couldn't restrain myself from not putting this in.

i'm kinda hungry now, with a messed up tangled hair. sun rise! feel like sitting in the living room while i wait for the crack of dawn. but then, i scared got ghost. HAHAHAHA. (im serious).

ghost = scared = shocking = fainting = cannot take lit paper. (WALAO. AND MISS LIBERATION DAY!? YOU GOTTA BE KIDDING).

should appreciate my nonsense right now. i think during holidays, i'll be very busy doing shit. so enjoy, the presence of yours truly while you can because very soon *sniffsniff, you might be looking at mr spidey instead of me :(

you wouldn't want that to happen right.

lastly, from the art people's all time favourite commando:


-still on a weight gaining scheme-

My 7 months old baby.

Online experts call it "the Blue Ring of Death". Something like Harry Potter and the Goblet of fire. Feel like changing phone already. SE has been giving loads of problems. I really want a 8250/3310 phone. buy that for me for xmas will you?

on the other hand, i don't feel like buying a lousy phone by trading this baby in. therefore, samsung soul? how's that sound? no omnia. lynette and stylus can click.

gonna sleep and wake up later to partner deb and lear. nights (:

stress = excessive plucking of hair
stress = multiple blog entries per day
stress = want to kill people
stress = want to sleep now

seeing art friends before 2pm tmr = stress
seeing art friends after 5pm tmr = mini liberation.

seeing cynthia on thursday = stress

seeing classmates before 8am = stress
seeing classmates after 11am = BLOOODY LIBERATION.

seeing the sat ruggers on saturday = no stress.
seeing the sat ruggers on saturday = happy

seeing some other people on saturday = nonchalance

now=stress
now=sleepy

now= this is so childish.

if only,

SO NOT HELPING.

if only liukang was LIKE THAT, we won't have to like suffer now.

--

wanna catch twilight - Cedric Diggory's acting. ever since his appearance in HP & the goblet of fire (which he died! gasps! and i wasn't happy with it!), i've been on a watch for this guy's movies. probably missed a few, but i supposed not twilight, since there's such excessive adverts on it. (even grace's promoting it!) & i still haven't watch the coffin, my ananda everingham! william says its not scary (he claims that nothing is scary, bah), but just shocking (-.-). oh god. tell you all a sekret, the last time i watch a movie was the return of the mummy. before that was the dark knight, and before that, i think it's spideyman 3. i live in a well, i know.

(this is most probably one of the most bimbotic moments in my life, stating what i wanna watch. and what i wanna watch doesn't really sound so mature/knowledgable. but oh well, who cares) the only serious/mature/solemn movies that i've wacthed was the nativity(teo kar huai!) and letters from iwo jima (TEOKARHUAI!!!) but they were pretty nice (:

(so many brackets = so many thoughts= so many conflicts = so pissed off)

p.s: i wanna buy the book twilight too!

Daily Routines.

It's a daily routine for me to study my ass off outside. procrastinate a little(shucks, understatement, like totally), eat like free(another understatement), daydream a lil( another detected!) and get back home to study(right,) during the night again. i'm pretty amazed at the efficiency rate during the night as it's really really more productive... but ghosts stories aren't really helping cos the make me imagine a lil too much and scare the shit outta me.

now im wondering, if i can actually remember all my art stuff in this brain of mine. gah

it's a daily routine lah.

i also think it's a daily routine for this bangala to masturbate at the void deck of a block, which is a few blocks away from mine, near this bus stop that i always take bus from. i see him sitting at the same exact spot twice, doing the exact bobbing motion and stared at people, as if whatever he was doing in public DESERVES to be seen in public, and of course, that whatever he was doing was the RIGHT thing to do. i rolled my eyes at him for god knows how many times. so much for foreign talent. SO MUCH. though common and shared, the void deck is not a place for you to do unorthodox things. a couple kissing at a void deck would have caused an uproar amidst the older neighbours because private matters like that should be kept in your bedroom. i mean, not that i don't know of your sexual need.. away from homeland.. deprived of girls looking at you with a seductive stare.. so many hot girls lingering around but you have zero chances of having any contact with them.. but still! PCC-ing in public is disgusting!! and a form a visual harrassment. my mom wanted to kick him the other time. HAHAHAH. but still, eeew?

i'm not being racist here. if a chinese/angmoh did such a stuff in public, this entry would still surface. even good looking people don't have the right to PCC in public, much less a not good looking one (IMO that is). ya la ya la superficial, how? no, on a more serious note, i actually felt like calling the police.

okay. enough of such sexual talks. i need my guru. and excessive application of masks. bye

FOTD #3

Inside joke lah. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA. me and my mei rong shi fu.

2 toe nails broke.
1 on-the-verge.
Muscle aches.
Tired/sleepy.

Worth it. (:

But I can't let go.

It's feels fucking awesome.

It feels good to be back on the field after a whole more than 3 months break. I must say, those 3 months were horrible. I led those 3 months aimlessly, always cooping myself up in the art room, tolerating and swallowing all criticisms, scoldings and pressures, without having an outlet to vent them out. I couldn't even run because art ends around 9pm everyday. Adding to my misery was The House, which was, at that point of time known to be the most unfeeling and detached place I've ever been to. School, at least, I had friends. House, nothing, except frequent tolerating of frustrations that were being emitting out from certain spots.

Though foreign, there's still a sense of belonging we felt. Never had we played on that pitch before as we had the "luxury" of our school's awesome field where we can dive and do whatever, not in public. I miss them. I miss those army boys that always play with us, and the teamies. It was until today that I realised that their presence, though minimal, like once a week, is able to have a huge impact on the entire week. Their nonsense - incomparable. Though irritating, but still hilarious. Though army men, but they behave like boys (though they're damn wishy washy), like we've known each other for a very long time and we're just gathering to catch up on lives through playing on the pitch. I like. It's kinda hard to describe such highly positive feeling, but all could be summed up in a single sentence:

I felt damn freaking happy today.

Prove the phrase wrong, that happy moments do not last long.

We'll make this last.
We'll make this last.

We Will.

FOTD #2 + Missing Ball Pump.

Not exactly a failure.. but still!

Wah, I can't seem to find my ball pump, just when I told william that i'll bring it! Shitass. I think he'll kill meeeeeeeeee. :( I think it's because my room's too neat (irony detected, yes, alot of ironies in my life. It's an ironical life I lead). Maybe, I should stop cleaning my room. HAHAHAHA NO IM KIDDING. But argh! Where's that ball pump! Wilson brand somemore!! Must be tennis!!!! MR K! ALL YOUR FAULT AH TENNIS BOY!!

Ok, I really want my air pump now. I want to play ball tmr. Stupid ass pump.

-finding-

Okay, found it beside the phone. I must have been am blind. Irritating lo. Eh, sometimes right, I really wanna blog seriously. Some blogs that I've read right, the bloggers are like damn serious from the way they blog about their life:

Woke up 8am~ so early lohh..
bathed and everything, took about half an hour...
then went out to school..
almost missed the bus sia! lucky i walked fast enough.
then damn suay, the bus no seat,
have to wait till all the way...
left about 3 more stops to school..
then I sat..
siann lohhh...

Eh, do not laugh. This is serious business okay. They're so serious about elaborating their lives to you readers out there.! Must appreciate.

disclaimer: if the above quote has any similarities with your blog, it's purely coincidental as the blogger(me) herself typed out that paragraph. she does not wish to have any dispute over this apparently A+ quote and would love to have world peace. V(^_^)V

Okay, I'm absolutely being stupid now.


I think there'll be more FOTDs tmr, considering the fact with whom am I hanging out with for the day. HAHAHA. Eh I tell you, I think I got memory loss, can't seem to remember things that I did less than an hour ago. Like now, I can't remember what cynthia and I were talking about at macs just now, though we're like laughing like ass. :(

(rolls eyes) - for ada. IM EXASPERATED, LIKE TOTALLY! :D

Dear Holga, say hi to your new best friend, VivitarUWS (:



Me is very happy, got it yesterday! I need space to hide things in my room. But speaking of yours truly's room, it's in a huge mess right now, my mom says it looks like a store room, which I AGREE to a LARGE EXTENT. Kena already la. Because it's like when you enter the room from the door (the only way), you get to see a huge display of books on my table, which is not a very nice view lo. :(

I can't wait for saturday, gonna scandal with gilbert. wuahahaha. And i'm gonna bring one of this babies out. I think vivitaruws, holga a bit big, somemore it's like im gonna play rugby, i might just kick off my $80. GAH. Films are so freaking expensive in singapore. I wanna go over the seas to get em at a freaking cheap price lahhhhhhhh

Failure of the day (FOTD) #1

sorry, couldn't take it. sneezy nose + cramps + bad bad bad headache + weight gaining isn't a very good combination for such a day, though it does make me more focused in econs as i'll be so damn lazy to move about except screaming at myself for NOT taking more tissue. other than that, it's stalling my brain(sighs, irony detected - brain has always been stalled), thus, i've turned to my good ol' buddy, acer aspire to relief myself(literally dude)

gonna come up with something lame on this blog, soon. (then again, hasn't it always been lame?) was inspired by all those fashion beauty and make up blogs where they teach girls how to apply makeup correctly or what hairdo suits what face or what design should certain people avoid and everything about being vain and layering cakes of lead on your face. (yes, sighs, lynette goes to such places when she's bored. ok lyinglying liarrrrrrrrrrrr. "honest" Iago)

i've managed to 'punned' something from there. all your fault la deb. you and your puns. but nehmind, me likes.

FOTD (to them-the makeup gurus there, it means(methinks) ''Face of the day", which implies that they'll submit a 'face' that they did. ahya, grandmother lee doesn't really know how to explain, but it's like breaking down the steps for this 'face' that you've layered with makeup on that particular day for everyone to see. yah.) OKAY. chill me will not put horrible caked up faces of yours truly on this already depressing, with a dry and weird sense of humor blog. i don't want to be the reason.....

for the increase in teenage suicides. thanks alot. (but then again, not alot people read... so perhaps i should.......)

NO LA. MY FOTD MEANS "FAILURE OF THE DAY"

you guys have no balls about how lame and idiotic and failing a day of mine can get whenever im out of the house (that's why im always lazing at home. super nuable. ok sidetracking) i can encounter so many degrees of 'fail' to the extent that i feel like a total failure (i am not okay). so im here to spread my sorrow, and accepting more people into the fail club.

just when you thought this was bad enough....

" d(^_^)b"

"hey how did you get that inverted 'b'?"

"its called 'd'"

yes. the world isn't really a smart place afterall.

oh, and to start the opening ceremony of my most awesome and lamest thing that i would ever do in 18 years and on of my life, my bosom friend - Orange Peel shall grace the honour. oh, O.P is friends with deb and lisa too. (no, its not the same packet that i bought 2 months ago. wuahaha)

surname-tan skin.

oh, and while taking this photo, i realised it's a product of china. oh melamine! die you lucifer! leave thy gall bladder you stones. make me pee in peace!!

i love my k750i and im looking forward to further downgrade my handphone! fensi/fan has NOKIA 3310!! OMG I LUB THAT PHONE. colourless and still can change the provider into some weird cartoons one. me likes. but too bad he's an ass in that aspect and refuses to lend wifey. which means i can't steal it from her. assss. i want to play snake.

ps: my mom is listening to wanglihong's weiyi. TRENDY OR WHAT!!? SCRAPE THAT! she's listening to jaychou's jian dan ai now! OMGAHHHHHH.

bye, got a date with sloman. awesome kickass

so damn freaking tired
until you go through it
you'll never know what it feels

help.

My awesome deal.

That's Me in my blissful face, in the infamous pjs and awesome camera(:

OMG, I finally got my hands on this beloved thing. Now, I need to find a secret hiding place for it. I need to protect it from 2 people, namely me and and my mom. From my mom as she doesn't know about her daughter's excessive spending on this despite getting her a canon digicam (&she'll never understand why would I want a film camera, as compared to the current digicam i have). And from me, till A's are done. Because of spending more than $100 bucks on the site, the seller gave me a roll of film free, therefore, I have every urge to to just slot the film in and start taking pictures like mad cow, thank god cynthia was there today to stop me. HAHAHAHA. My dad, well, I don't really think he cares about all these crap. HAHAHA. Eh it looks like a toy camera hor! SO cute!! Cynthia has eventually got the photog bug and will be buying the same camera as me, but in blue(people so guniang...) Sometimes, I wonder if she's buying for the result (images&process of taking them) or just because it looks too cute to resist. Wuahahah. I'm gonna get a bunch more!! So wait up! I'll be taking pictures of THEM soon (when they arrive that is).

Been eating non-stop. Wootx. Eat. Drink coffee and tea like free. Wootxzx. That's a photo taken long time ago. Many (typical) girls hate to have their photo taken when they're eating, I guess I'm not that typical afterall.
Ciao! Hokkien prawn noodle with lime!! ART MOMENTS.

The Word of the Day: Disgusting

I'm probably one of the emo-est kids around nowadays. Besides roaming around for a good spot to study together with cynthia, I've also been roaming around the net, surfing for fun cameras that produces special effects - ah yes, running away. Imma full time escapist so exciting. I'm a coward, it's disgusting.

I'm so disgusted with everything to the extent that I just wanna die - not a very good escape route, but we shall just make do with whatever that presents themselves infront of us, afterall, beggars can't be choosers right? I've been reading PnP and it's so ironic that I can fall in love with something so corny in today's term, especially the part when Darcy and Elizabeth cleared the air and started being slightly lovey-dovey. I was totally in-to it man. Like what Ms Thiang says "it's so romantic, it's digusting" It's not really advisable to read PnP and Othello in the same day either, Othello gets my heart pumping very very fast, like how I feel before a rugby game starts and it simply makes me feel like murdering people. 2 contrasting emotions, can drive you mad, especially when you have a slightly eccentric friend who went into a trance when we saw tay pinghui.

I got to know of polaroid instant cameras only when i heard the news of them halting the production of their instant films which immediately made me felt like hell. But I've found a new substitute for it (thanks to jayjay). And effing $115 for the cam, and $1.30/film. 70c may not make much of a significant difference in a few pictures, but when i'm talking about few stacks of photo, i'm talking about a significant deficit in my bank account there. Just right there.

People are pretty insensitive. Stop thinking that being in a JC is a big fuck.

I've been feeling a little apathetic after that fateful day. I wonder if am I in a state of denial or what.

I want my Blackbird Fly Holga Camera. Wuahahaha. Speaking of which, my Holga 120GCFN is here. Awesome. I wanna take pics of so many things. You know what, perhaps I should adopt the perspective of my art teacher. Quit everything and be a florist. Haha. Eh, wait. She has a DEGREE in NTU, I have a o level cert from pingyi (WHERE IS THAT OMG!?)

Some of the smses that I've received from all over the network. I had to reread all of them to feel good.. and motivated.. and that it's a real liberation day waiting once this shit is over.

Lynette,

no matter what happens, you must stay strong and firm cos things will definitely be better one day. You have friends for you always. Cheer Up

KahJun aka Lee Da Bian aka BrotherLEEEE

kjkjkjkjkj.

To my camp pinn gang.. 2006 was a year full of excitement and of catching up with you guys.. I enjoyed the holiday that we've spent together and the memories. However, 2007 is calling and I hope to answer the new year with a promise to know all of you even better. 2007 will be the year of the hot nerd and you guys will be there to witness it. Love you all.

zicky.

I miss zicko & my camp pinn gang, :(

Great game today. Sorry I couldn't stay, I wanted to but I needed to be back home. Hope to see you in action again! (:

13 years and on huh. (:

Hey, I'm really proud of you guys, exp for the last game that showed alot of heart and it was wonderful watching you guys from the sideline. Now you guys have a game you'll always remember. Heh

Coach.

I.MISS.RUGBY and derelyn screaming at us (yes, screaming) at the sidelines. with wookie under her umbrella, ella ella eh eh eh.